I regretted of not able to control my feelings as if back then I was able to think logically, I wouldn’t had let my feeling outburst and I wouldn’t unintentionally stoned Mez’s heart causing her being stoned inside out which lead her death of being staked by slayers.
Just by thinking of the person you love just make your nose sour, eyes teary. The pain of losing someone you love wasn’t easy to get by as every breath that you breathe in was like toxic running through your gut, throat, heart, every organ killing every cells that were living in your organs till the point you feel like you wouldn’t want to live in a world where you know he or she isn’t here anymore, you would rather die to live in a world where they are no longer here by your side. If wasn’t because of abilities of turning people’s heart to stone, she would be still here alive breathing, having a life with me. Chirsty definitely didn’t know that actually Casper wanted him to be happy so he was trying to convert the girl Christy loved so deeply to something that is compatible with us.Įver since I lost Mez, my life had been colorless. Up to now, I had no news of her but somehow I wished that she is okay and I can find her back for Christy as I finally can understand that feeling of falling in love deeply with somebody you really love.
I couldn’t tell Christy the truth that actually Casper didn’t killed her but instead turning her into one of us but she ran out of Casper right after he taught her the ways of living as a vampire. It felt like he finally moved on from his first love that Casper should had killed but ended up daggered Christy to sleep. As he kept staying by Miserables’s side from her shopping for clothes to buying accessories, he will without fail would stand by her side to accompany her throughout the entire journey. Said that we there shall go out and enjoy ourselves but it seems like Christy wanted a two person world with Miserables alone. Throughout the entire excursion with Christy and Miserables it was unbearable because I felt like a third wheel in the outing of strolling to have some fresh air.